lonely

Why so lonely.

So isolated.

Alone.

far to long now.

Shall i look beyond these four walls.

And seek the love.

I so so need.

I often catch the eye of .

beauty.

Is she looking toward me in disgust.

Or also in need of the love why all try and catch.

Why when i see such beauty.

Do i let it slip through my hands.

Full of anxiety.?

Or maybe excitement.

I look away.

Walk away .

Beating myself  up.

"you idiot why did you not assert yourself and make conversation. with such beauty."

Time after time i do it.

As she walks away.

I glare.

Look away.

Glare.

Walk away.

Why did i not. speak with such beauty.

So in need to be loved.

I picture.

Myself and a beautiful lady.
Free .

On a sun down beach.

laying.

cuddling.

hand in hand.

making love.

hearing her gentle voice.

Saying its alright.
.
I'm anxious.

She feels my nerves.

But its all ok.

we become one.

And nothing can get in our way.

together we are 12 foot tall.

romance.

Places.

We share together.

I look at her.

And feel like I've never felt before.

BUT now I'm on my own.

and cant find the love.

I so so need.

maybe.

its not meant to be.

Its not my time.

As time slips away.

I pray.

not to be alone much longer.

41 and .

AND.

So so  lonely.