Who from the terrible affliction.
Of addiction shall be next.
Its so sad to hear.
Most of the time whilst visiting medway.
Someone else has died.
Addiction doesn't care who it takes.
As soon as addiction is on you.
Your time could be up anytime.
I have seen it take 15yr olds.
Think your a man.
And can handle it.
Well let me tell you I've seen bigger harder men.
Fall and die from addiction.
The thing is to many people ..
Are to quick to jump to the conclusion..
That its his or her own fault.
Wrong,.
Do you have any idea ..
The Paine & suffering.
Addicts face.
Day in..
Day out.
Plus the ripple effect it has on family.
And loved ones.
I see addiction as an emotional dis-ease.
I used to think i took drugs.
Because of how it made me feel.
A buzz.
No,No.
Drugs are used to suppress uncomfortable feelings..
Loneliness,anxiety,depression,,etc,etc.
As rogers described addiction.
"A BOTTOMLESS BUCKET, OF LOW SELF ESTEEM .
WHICH ADDICTS TRY TO FILL BY DRUG ABUSE, GAMBLING,SEX,COMFORT EATING,ETC.
BUT THEY WILL NEVER FULFIL THEIR DESIRE TO INCREASE THERE LACK OF SELF ESTEEM OR CONFIDENCE.".
As you obviously cant fill a bucket with no bottom.
So the cycle begins.
I feel very anxious.
Your introduced to hash,coke,benzodiazapines,heroin.
And all anxiety's are flushed from the body's system immediately .
But drugs are very cunning.
Your excited at this newly found potion.
As it takes away the Paine and suffering doesn't it ?.
Yes for the short term.
Everything is beautiful whilst in the utopias eye.
But as the progression of the intake of substances increases.
So does the paine & suffering you once tryed to avoid .
It comes back with ferousious volocity that one has one option at this time.
And that is when the chase starts.
Youl beg steal borrow,some sell themselves.
Being done up the bumb.
To ease the paine. (adds to it,belates,procrastinates).
The emotional dis-ease.
I suppose i was lucky enough to not go down the road of selling my ass.
But was, i a tear away.
IF it wasnt cemented to the floor and worth at least a tennar.
It was gone,...
With me to be sold to feed my addiction.
I was driven to violance to the extremetys .
Armed robbery..
And to much to go into at this moment.
My time was spent.
17 months shop burglary.
Gate arrest, elmley prison.
To brixton.
Remanded,upon extradition to the republic of ireland.
For the armed robbery.
Ok just done 17 months in elmley,1 moon at brixton.
Then in dundalk circuit (crown court in ireland) court.
4 years.
Already done couple of moons in the joy (mount joy prison dublin) on remand.
Judge gives the 4 plus starts the sentance from that day.
So i lose my remanded time already spent.
Consequences of addiction.
But many more.
I wont bore you with everything.
A little insight.
BASEBALL BAT, two attacks.
CLORE HAMMER,ONCE.
Stabbed left arm.
Left with fractured scull.
Over 100 stiches to face and head.
broken nose.
PLATES RUNNING in both arms from wrist 2 half way up my forearm.
Chipped teeth.
SCARS,to middle of forehead,each eyebrow,to the right of my nose.
Head coloured by scars.
Broken collar bone from a sly munger (hit me from behind,didnt even know it was coming.).
Knuckle broke.
I could go on & on .
But not now.
I JUST WANT PEOPLE TO UNDERSTAND THE DEVISTATION THAT DRUGS HAVE ON PEOPLE,ITS NOT WHAT SOME WANKERS MAKE IT OUT TO BE,IN ALL HONESTY ITS A FUCKING NIGHTMARE,GOD WANT TO SEND ME TO HELL,ALREADY BEEN THERE.
I JUST HOPE THAT KIDS ARE WELL EDUCATED WHEN IT COMES TO DRUGS.
AS I HAVE A DAUGHTER & IT WOULD KILL ME TO FIND MY SPECIAL LITTLE GIRL BEING EMOTIONALY,SPIRITUALY AND PHYSICALLY , DESTROYED.
HOPE PEOPLE GET THIS MESSAGE.AND I WISH I HAD MORE TIME TO EXPLAIN EVERY CONSEQUENCE THAT DRUGS INCLUDING ALCOHOL (WHICH IS A DRUG BUT SOCIALY ACCEPTED).HAVE ON US.
GOOD HEALTH TO YOU ALL.
REGARDS
KENNY.MOORE XXX
That being one valid theory.
